The Autumn Outside, and the Autumn Within
A season that never ends.
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Outside, autumn reigns with colors of gold and rust,
walking in fancy colors, is really a sad, old whore
Within, the autumn stays forever, heaps of ash and dust,
it was born when I was born, will die when I’m no more
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Outside, there is a verdict, a cruel and harsh judgment,
unsolicited and uninvited, yet delivered firmly in the face
Within, there exists failure, dark, rotten, and repugnant,
it was born when I was born, will die when I quit the race
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Outside, there is refusal, a hard and cold rejection,
imparted cruelly, yet justified and utterly sensible
Within, there exists misery, a bitter and dark dejection,
it was born when I was born, will die as I am dispensable
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Outside, there is warmth, an almost useless affection,
a product of reciprocity, mere courtesy, and manners
Within, there is love - a brightly burning perfection,
it was born when I was born, will die with lowered banners
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Outside, there is sadness, and within it is always blue,
in perfect harmony, the weeping violin and the crying cello
Outside, the autumn reigns, and within, there is an autumn too,
were there when I was born, will fade as the ink turns yellow
Life and Times of the Yellow Moon
Where does the yellow full moon vanish
when a new moon is born up there and far?
Does it become a memory, sweet but painful
dreams, that are either forgotten or they scar?
Or does it shatter into a million little pieces;
each piece evolving into a lovely shining star?
A glorious October dawn
Of what use is a glorious October dawn,
if the beautiful colours over the horizon;
do not remind you and make you smile,
of someone’s blushed and fragrant laughter
To Him who Cared to Give a Fuck
This is what happens when kindness is wasted, loyalty is ignored, and patience snaps.
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To you, my friend, who cared to give a fuck,
to you, my friend, who chose to care for all
None of your fucks ever mattered,
none of them were counted at all
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For God’s sake, don’t be so fucking sad,
you just gave a fuck and not your whole life
For Heaven’s sake, your fuck wasn’t even that good,
it was a dull blade at the most, not even a sharp knife
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You think you just gave a fuck or two,
and they were all that were ever needed?
You believe even if you gave countless fucks,
were they all the shit that you ever ceded?
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You and your countless stupid fucks,
both be damned to the red hell and back
All the damn fucks you ever cared to give,
and the fucks you didn’t ever try to crack
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Keep your fuck and keep it hidden and safe,
it is not needed at all, in fact, it never was
Keep your fucking love and keep it with you,
it is not valued at all; in fact, it never was
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To all your fucks, only a ‘fuck you’ is granted,
and that too is a generosity beyond words
You deserved less, and you got far, far more,
only cause you ain’t complete but in sherds
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To you, my friend, who cared to give a fuck,
to you, my friend, who chose to care for all
None of your fucks ever mattered,
none of them were counted at all
Shehryar khawar 