The last time we met, he told me that it was the last meeting.

No words were spoken. No gestures were made. It was just a silent communication …….. initiated by him and received and acknowledged by me.

‘But why leave?’ I silently inquired.

‘I am tired. My frail heart cannot keep up with my spirit. The spirit needs to be free. I need to be free’. The smile was still kind but sad.

‘But what about your friends? What about those who love you? What about me?’ I pleaded.

‘Oh but I will always be there in your heart. Each time you need the advice of an old man. Each time you need a blessing. And each time you need a friend’. His eyes were two misty grey pools glimmering with moisture. ‘Remember Tipu, memory is what keeps us alive.’

‘I am going to miss you Uncle. I am going to miss the warm aroma of your pipe tobacco. I am going to miss your throaty chuckles. And I am going to miss your kindness.’ My heart was heavy with the sorrow of farewell.

‘Yes I know that!’ He bowed his head silently. ‘But you have to let me go.’

‘Farewell old friend!’ I whispered sadly within myself.

‘Farewell Tipu!’ his eyes smiled kindly.


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Tales of the Ancient Turtle: Dreaming of God


I was friends with a very ancient turtle once. I was very young, probably four or five and he lived in our backyard. The turtle talked to me. He told me many stories of times past and people long dead. He was wise, very wise and a four year old kid was no match to his wisdom. But he talked to me because I believe, in a way he loved me. He loved me because I could listen to him for long, my pupils enlarged in astonishment and my brow knitted in curiosity.

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Tolerating the Intolerance


Throughout the late 1970s and the early 80s, there was a nude rendering of a Red Indian girl, hanging on one of the walls of our middle class abode. The choice of mysteriously dark colours accentuating the well-proportioned figure, made it exude an aura of subtle eroticism. I loved it and was infatuated by the sheer exoticism of the study. But once when I hesitatingly asked my father if she was naked, he answered with an amused glint in his eyes, ‘Nope. Who says? She is wearing an almost invisible cloak of feathers.’ With those few words, any remaining likelihood of sensuality and secret pleasures vanished into thin air with an almost audible ‘poof’. And after that, she was just an object of art for me – deserving rapt attention but short of any pre-adolescent intimacy.

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‘So…is God really big?’, my son, about five years old and growing mischievous by the minute, asked me yesterday. ‘Yeah….I think so’, I answered very very carefully, trying to gauge the race track his mind was galloping on. ‘Is He bigger than me?’ ‘Yup…certainly’. ‘Is he bigger than our house?’ ‘Ahan…’ ‘Is he bigger than everything?’ ‘Oh yeah….!’ I breathed a sigh of short lasted relief. That was easy. ‘Will he burn me in fire if I am a bad boy?’ Huh! ‘Why do you say so? Who said that to you?’ The overprotecting father in me sprang to the front. ‘Qari Saab’, he answered nonchalantly. Okkaayyyy….., let him come again and I will clear his doubts. My silent fury was interrupted as he asked again, ‘so is He going to burn…..’. ‘Hey buddy…you know what….God is just like your mom’, I hurriedly cut him short. ‘Fat…?’, he asked with a glint in his eye. ‘No…..not fat….’, I answered while desperately looking around to check if the lady of the house was within earshot, ‘He is kind and loving and…’ ‘Okay!’, was the only response and the matter was solved. I looked at him playing happily with the water pistol and thought, ‘you don’t know it yet little man. But most probably that’s going to be the biggest question, you’ll ask yourself one day’.

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