Deep within the void I call my heart,
surrounding the nucleus of my soul
There is a desolation so cruel and vast;
a frozen glacier so merciless so cold
The coldness bites into my bones;
it cuts me from without and within
There is a pain – so many shades and tones
twisting my memory and crumpling my skin
I bleed from a million different places;
yet it is only me who sees the blood
I scream with a million screaming faces;
yet it is only me who hears the words
You are cursed forever, the words say;
damned to walk and trace, the sad path of life
To the end, that is your only way;
a watery grave, a bullet or a sharp knife
And why is that so, I ask with a weary smile;
while my heart sinks down and down
Your soul is dark, strangely the answer is so vile;
and your heart is an abandoned ghost town
I peek within and find the ghosts smiling;
faces contorted in agony and mirth
Their gestures are fierce, not reconciling;
demons following me since the damned birth